thought for the night.. umaga na pala.. 6.1.09 4am

i know i made a mistake.. but i tried to make it up on you..

i said sorry.. let go of my pride just to have you back..

but nothing happened..

you decided for you own.. i decided for my own too...

so why regret the things we wanted..

our decisions went different directions.. thats why we're here..

things are getting confusing..

now you're going back..

for what reason? love?

why love now? when you should have done it way before..

why tell me you miss me when im not the one you choose before..

why say u want to see me now when before you dont?

why say you want to talk to me when before you had so many excuses?


lies where said.. things were done.. after that we regret it..

why is that so..


now i dont feel

the love you're saying..

the care you're giving..

the eagerness that you want things back the way they used to be.. which is way impossible..

the sincerity of the things you say.. maybe it should be done?


why should i believe you this time?

when the things you promised were not done..

why should we give this one more shot?

its not i want to give you a hard time..

but i want it to be different this time..

how will i know that this is the last time?

that it wont happen again for the 4th time..

how will i know?

i had enough of these..

im tired of waiting.. crying.. and hoping for the better..

i know its not you and its not me too..

its "us"..